It's difficult to explain that one has had a terrible reaction to a drug that is supposed to help you, especially when it's an illness ( i don't know if i should describe it as an illness? ) that you don't want to talk about. I don't mind talking about it in here as much as I do to my friends and co-workers. The only person I feel comfortable talking about it to is S. I don't want to dramatize [ too much ]. All I really would like to say is thank you to S. He stayed awake with me, endured my non-stop coughing, and all of the mental-garbage that went along with the terrible reaction. He pulled me through and held my hand through the entire thing (even when I was throwing up, personally, watching someone else throw up makes me vomit because i have a wimp for a stomach)He made me feel very loved and appreciated and all of that sappy stuff that I hold him in the highest regards for. I only hope that I can be as much help in return.
I love you. /sap.