-I am confused about five billion things right now.

-A. is driving me completely certifiably,wack-o

-I have no idea how to plan the future, I’d like to take each day as it comes but the days keep falling apart

- so, I’m rooting my hope in the future.

- I have been very fixated with death lately

- i have been craving comfort food like crazy

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- i still cannot see ari’s bedroom floor

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- the 75ish year old man that works on this floor was trying to teach our foreign exchange person curse words

- I am writing more

- A lot of people who care about me and were worried sent me e-mails or called when I didn’t write them back for weeks, even months, because i am having problems.

-my sister turned two

-my boyfriend has the sweetest lips ever

- i love the graphics magazine that gets delivered to me at work

-we can still see the kitchen floor

-we can still see the living room floor

- i am in love

- the fact that i have ari still absolutely astounds me. he is wonderful (and bratty).

things i would like to do this weekend

-paint

-make blueberry pancakes

-look for old stuff at vintage stores to do stuff with

-pick up my guitar that I had to have.

-pick up a bit of a’s room

-paint shelves

-feel happy

-snuggle aforementioned boyfriend with the kissable lips

-go to the bookstore

-try to refrain from satiating my urge to smoke clove cigarettes

-find an “arts-y” postcard for my nervousness exchange

-take a picture of me in my red shoes/red fishnets for an exchange

ohh. I have a red slip too.

-feel happy